Best High Risk Payment processors available?

What are the best and most secret payment processors available?

There are tons of threads around saying there is this and there and everywhere but I find it very difficult to find the right payment processor that accept high risk business.

There are a few mentioned, I also checked the resource database, all fine, but I need more.

It's simple Internet business subscription based. I sell some ebook and teaching people in stuff in membership areas.

They all say it is high risk!